OK, Beltane.
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chrysillaYah, its Beltane, I'm wearing my handmade green dress with the handkerchief hem. Last night I did all the candle and tarot stuff. Some consider the Celtic festivals start at sunset the night before, and I figured I may not remember or feel up to doing stuff the next day, so I figured I'd better put it together while I felt able. Also picked up a bouquet of vibrant, dark purple mums for my flower pitcher, so it was more difficult to be moody when there were fresh flowers in the house. Lol.
Last week I did a bunch of tarot, with an eclipsey full moon in Scorpio, so it was all very MYSTERY and DARKNESS and BEWARE type stuff. Wanted to still do something for Beltane, so I focused more on the themes of growth and renewal. Where am I going? What can/could I develop? And I think it worked out pretty well. I used the Shadowscapes deck, since I used Cat People last week, and I use Steampunk all the time now. May switch to Shadowscapes for weekly updates cuz I'm kinda tired of the Steampunk deck's drama.
First I improvised a year forecast. Temperance fell out of the deck and onto the table as I was shuffling, so I figured that would be the overall theme of the next year's journey. And it definitely fits. I really need to learn balance, b/c I always overdo it one way or another and end up not where I want to be.
Starts with May as Ace of Swords. Maybe not the best omen, but y'know, its a start. June, Dec, and Feb look like good months financially. The summer will either be full of emo romantic crap, or more hopefully unlocking some of my creative problems. Either way, I'll be recovering from it in September, but the rest of the autumn looks like it will be upbeat and manageable. January will either feel very *stuck*, or will involve a sacrifice or leap of faith, or maybe one will finally lead to the other. That will get nurtured and germinate in February, and by March whatever it is will bloom into teh awesome. Followed by April, which looks like it may be a lot of work, but in a 'hit the ground running don't worry you can do it' kind of way.
It would be nice if January indicated when I could leave my day job for my other projects, but at this rate I don't think that's likely. March will probably be the first time I get a good sense of how those projects are shaping up, and whether that particular leap of faith will ever be possible.
Not sure if I'll be ready to 'rejoin society' until October or November by this reckoning, but meh, tarot. I could have asked "when will I feel better" but things like that are relative and fuzzy at the best of times. "Always in motion is future."
Next I improvised a reading in a growth theme, starting from the bottom card and going up, pruning the branches back where I didn't want to continue:
In stark contrast to last week's readings (OMG DON'T TRUST PEOPLE THEY WILL MAKE YOU CRAZY), this one is all about teh teamwork and sharing, and possibly delegating of tasks and responsibilities instead of falling into a paranoid state (delusion?) of needing to learn to do the whole project by myself.
I still think last week was relevant, but in a *now* sense. I take this reading more as a "When you're feeling well enough to do projects again, don't keep them secret from other ppl who might actually be able to help (rather than make u crazy)." I would still like to learn to do all-the-things, but maybe for the first chapter of the project I can bring in other ppl to start it off, and I can learn from them. And/or decide I'd really just focus on the parts I'm good at.
And The Sun shows up again, like it did in the year reading, so whenever it gets produced it may really take off by next March. Actually, the first/bottom card is also my November, so maybe that's when I first/finally get my Avengers assembled.
I especially like the symmetry of the 10 Wands being a character with a whole city on her back (and they likely don't appreciate her efforts), but when that effort is bent towards and twined with the Empress influence it becomes the Page of Pentacles. Still grounded, still germinating in the earth, but now the character is on top of the dragon. Yaaaay!
So yah, Beltane. Will probably go for a walk around the park after work today, but I also need to pick up some flash drives so I can do my photo editing on my lunch breaks at work. Am considering doing something about my lagging inspiration problems, but I figure that's all tied into the CF problems anyway, so if I get healthier that may wake itself back up. It already is a leetle bit. Patience, kitteh. And last night kept me up past my bedtime, for which I feel not so sprightly today. Whups.
BTW, this was this week's forecast:
Pain! Angst! Feels! ZOMG!
Yeah... Steampunk Tarot, you got some drama problems. I'm not feeling this level of badness yet, tho I don't really feel as well as last week. Its also TTotM, so mebbe I should just lay extra low this week.
<3 Chrysilla
Last week I did a bunch of tarot, with an eclipsey full moon in Scorpio, so it was all very MYSTERY and DARKNESS and BEWARE type stuff. Wanted to still do something for Beltane, so I focused more on the themes of growth and renewal. Where am I going? What can/could I develop? And I think it worked out pretty well. I used the Shadowscapes deck, since I used Cat People last week, and I use Steampunk all the time now. May switch to Shadowscapes for weekly updates cuz I'm kinda tired of the Steampunk deck's drama.
First I improvised a year forecast. Temperance fell out of the deck and onto the table as I was shuffling, so I figured that would be the overall theme of the next year's journey. And it definitely fits. I really need to learn balance, b/c I always overdo it one way or another and end up not where I want to be.
Starts with May as Ace of Swords. Maybe not the best omen, but y'know, its a start. June, Dec, and Feb look like good months financially. The summer will either be full of emo romantic crap, or more hopefully unlocking some of my creative problems. Either way, I'll be recovering from it in September, but the rest of the autumn looks like it will be upbeat and manageable. January will either feel very *stuck*, or will involve a sacrifice or leap of faith, or maybe one will finally lead to the other. That will get nurtured and germinate in February, and by March whatever it is will bloom into teh awesome. Followed by April, which looks like it may be a lot of work, but in a 'hit the ground running don't worry you can do it' kind of way.
It would be nice if January indicated when I could leave my day job for my other projects, but at this rate I don't think that's likely. March will probably be the first time I get a good sense of how those projects are shaping up, and whether that particular leap of faith will ever be possible.
Not sure if I'll be ready to 'rejoin society' until October or November by this reckoning, but meh, tarot. I could have asked "when will I feel better" but things like that are relative and fuzzy at the best of times. "Always in motion is future."
Next I improvised a reading in a growth theme, starting from the bottom card and going up, pruning the branches back where I didn't want to continue:
In stark contrast to last week's readings (OMG DON'T TRUST PEOPLE THEY WILL MAKE YOU CRAZY), this one is all about teh teamwork and sharing, and possibly delegating of tasks and responsibilities instead of falling into a paranoid state (delusion?) of needing to learn to do the whole project by myself.
I still think last week was relevant, but in a *now* sense. I take this reading more as a "When you're feeling well enough to do projects again, don't keep them secret from other ppl who might actually be able to help (rather than make u crazy)." I would still like to learn to do all-the-things, but maybe for the first chapter of the project I can bring in other ppl to start it off, and I can learn from them. And/or decide I'd really just focus on the parts I'm good at.
And The Sun shows up again, like it did in the year reading, so whenever it gets produced it may really take off by next March. Actually, the first/bottom card is also my November, so maybe that's when I first/finally get my Avengers assembled.
I especially like the symmetry of the 10 Wands being a character with a whole city on her back (and they likely don't appreciate her efforts), but when that effort is bent towards and twined with the Empress influence it becomes the Page of Pentacles. Still grounded, still germinating in the earth, but now the character is on top of the dragon. Yaaaay!
So yah, Beltane. Will probably go for a walk around the park after work today, but I also need to pick up some flash drives so I can do my photo editing on my lunch breaks at work. Am considering doing something about my lagging inspiration problems, but I figure that's all tied into the CF problems anyway, so if I get healthier that may wake itself back up. It already is a leetle bit. Patience, kitteh. And last night kept me up past my bedtime, for which I feel not so sprightly today. Whups.
BTW, this was this week's forecast:
Pain! Angst! Feels! ZOMG!Yeah... Steampunk Tarot, you got some drama problems. I'm not feeling this level of badness yet, tho I don't really feel as well as last week. Its also TTotM, so mebbe I should just lay extra low this week.
<3 Chrysilla