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May. 7th, 2013 05:25 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
chrysillaWas a mixed weekend. Each day offered a b'day outing with a good college era friend. But the movie party won out over the picnic-surrounded-by-pollen party. And I could only really do one or the other and still get all my home stuff done. On the upside, saw Iron Man, yay!
Did not really accomplish anything aside from my normal chores. No new jewelry happened, or photo editing or Etsy uploads.
Tho cooking wise I tried a new recipe for very spiced (but not too spicy) meatballs. I forgot that ground beef *leaks* when cooked, so they're a little dry, but the spice blend is nummy. I may try to apply this to meatloaf next time.
I'm also trying new meat/plant ratios in my meals this week, which my stomach has not yet made up its mind about. It may also be a matter of cooked vs. raw plants making it unhappy.
On my grocery trip to Costco I saw bed pillows on sale, and I'd already thought about replacing some of my pillows that week that I still hadn't washed the bed linens. So I did buy pillows so I could throw out some of the old ones instead of washing them. But I did finally wash all the rest of the bed linens, so Ima call that a win.
Looked over my finances some more, and found out that the IRS had finally succeeded in auto-depositing my refund, unlike any other year evar. Between that and the extra payday I'm getting in late May, that's a lot of extra I'll be putting in the Roth IRA this month (as planned, but I didn't expect the IRS deposit until June). And a lot of temptation to go $$ crazy for my b'day. But I think I'll be able to resist. Willpower, I think I has it? Did order the BPAL rarities on Friday nite, but kept myself to a spending limit without too much crankiness. Will maybe order those shoes this Friday, to stagger my shopping enjoyment. This may also be a good month to reserve my plane tix for DCon, since I already have that $$ saved up, and my earn/spend tracking will be all thrown off anyway.
Oh, and watched lots of JLA cartoons while doing the cooking thing and the laundry thing. Is fun :-)
Sunday the plan was to hang out with my friends while waiting on line for the movie, after getting there early, after eating two meals b/c I'd gotten up the time I usually do on weekends lately. But possibly thanks to the new pillows I slept way late, and only got to the movie after previews had started. So when IM3 was over I wanted to keep geeking out, and decided to risk the restaurant. And the burger place had gluten free hamburger buns so I didn't have to settle for 'salad, no dressing'.
I am ashamed, however, of my inability to not bitch about drama from years ago when I hang out with old friends. Srsly, can I just get over this already? I feels like a jerk. Will try to not do that in future. Tho it was a lot easier to not dwell on such things when I had the energy to live my life to the awesomest. Grr.
Having so much fun out with friends also put my hermit-project into more perspective. On one hand, being on my own really has forced me to figure new/old stuff out. On the other, I don't want to do this forever. I like my friends, they are fun to hang out with, it gets me excited about things in a way I can't be while totally on my own. So what is the balance? For now, Ima keep the 'lets recap' date my b'day, and from there I'll decide how many more weeks/months I want to work on this. So far its not looking like a total fail, but I'm also not expecting to be totally cured/managed by the 19th. We shall see.
For the last couple of days unfortunately, I've felt sooper groggy, sleepy, and hungover. I'm more than a little confused as to why (that is nothing new). On one hand, I seem to be sleeping better with the new pillows. Is that shutting off my body's mechanisms for coping with (constant?) sleep dep somehow? Or it could be that some gluten snuck into Sunday evening's dinner. The bun was gluten free, but did not ask about the fries, or the burger meat. Tho due to sleeping late on Sunday, before dinner... I dunno. Brain, this is why we can't have nice things.
I think Sunday nite/Monday morning I had a dream about trying to catch mice, and they were resisting the traps and one even bit me, and yet I didn't wake up having a panic attack. I hope that's a good sign. My dreams have been vivid (but hard to recall) again, but I'm sleeping through the night (I think?), but I feel like I'm sleep walking again. Can't win.
This has put the kibosh on being productive with side projects while at work, b/c I just can't focus. Its all I can do not to fall asleep on the circ desk :-/. Ima do my best to stick to a 9 hour sleep each night (after Monday, which is weird) and see if things improve. Tomorrow is also acupuncture, so if I'm at all awake we can have sleep/food/brain chatting. I think my anxiety is a little better, or at least not worse, for my trying to work on it. Tho I've been too zonked to keep reading the books I have to work with.
And yay, got my time off approved for my 4-day b'day weekend :-D Trying to figure out if I should reschedule my allergy shot and therapy sessions for the Friday and Monday respectively, b/c that means I can just sleeeeep those days and stay in the neighborhood. Or, leave them be, and its an easy way to tempt me out of the house on those days. Tho doing my regular grocery run on a weekday afternoon instead of the weekend might be a pleasant change too. So maybe I'll get my shots rescheduled for Thursday evening. B/c right now I'm definitely leaning towards maximum sleepage.
<3 Chrysilla
Did not really accomplish anything aside from my normal chores. No new jewelry happened, or photo editing or Etsy uploads.
Tho cooking wise I tried a new recipe for very spiced (but not too spicy) meatballs. I forgot that ground beef *leaks* when cooked, so they're a little dry, but the spice blend is nummy. I may try to apply this to meatloaf next time.
I'm also trying new meat/plant ratios in my meals this week, which my stomach has not yet made up its mind about. It may also be a matter of cooked vs. raw plants making it unhappy.
On my grocery trip to Costco I saw bed pillows on sale, and I'd already thought about replacing some of my pillows that week that I still hadn't washed the bed linens. So I did buy pillows so I could throw out some of the old ones instead of washing them. But I did finally wash all the rest of the bed linens, so Ima call that a win.
Looked over my finances some more, and found out that the IRS had finally succeeded in auto-depositing my refund, unlike any other year evar. Between that and the extra payday I'm getting in late May, that's a lot of extra I'll be putting in the Roth IRA this month (as planned, but I didn't expect the IRS deposit until June). And a lot of temptation to go $$ crazy for my b'day. But I think I'll be able to resist. Willpower, I think I has it? Did order the BPAL rarities on Friday nite, but kept myself to a spending limit without too much crankiness. Will maybe order those shoes this Friday, to stagger my shopping enjoyment. This may also be a good month to reserve my plane tix for DCon, since I already have that $$ saved up, and my earn/spend tracking will be all thrown off anyway.
Oh, and watched lots of JLA cartoons while doing the cooking thing and the laundry thing. Is fun :-)
Sunday the plan was to hang out with my friends while waiting on line for the movie, after getting there early, after eating two meals b/c I'd gotten up the time I usually do on weekends lately. But possibly thanks to the new pillows I slept way late, and only got to the movie after previews had started. So when IM3 was over I wanted to keep geeking out, and decided to risk the restaurant. And the burger place had gluten free hamburger buns so I didn't have to settle for 'salad, no dressing'.
I am ashamed, however, of my inability to not bitch about drama from years ago when I hang out with old friends. Srsly, can I just get over this already? I feels like a jerk. Will try to not do that in future. Tho it was a lot easier to not dwell on such things when I had the energy to live my life to the awesomest. Grr.
Having so much fun out with friends also put my hermit-project into more perspective. On one hand, being on my own really has forced me to figure new/old stuff out. On the other, I don't want to do this forever. I like my friends, they are fun to hang out with, it gets me excited about things in a way I can't be while totally on my own. So what is the balance? For now, Ima keep the 'lets recap' date my b'day, and from there I'll decide how many more weeks/months I want to work on this. So far its not looking like a total fail, but I'm also not expecting to be totally cured/managed by the 19th. We shall see.
For the last couple of days unfortunately, I've felt sooper groggy, sleepy, and hungover. I'm more than a little confused as to why (that is nothing new). On one hand, I seem to be sleeping better with the new pillows. Is that shutting off my body's mechanisms for coping with (constant?) sleep dep somehow? Or it could be that some gluten snuck into Sunday evening's dinner. The bun was gluten free, but did not ask about the fries, or the burger meat. Tho due to sleeping late on Sunday, before dinner... I dunno. Brain, this is why we can't have nice things.
I think Sunday nite/Monday morning I had a dream about trying to catch mice, and they were resisting the traps and one even bit me, and yet I didn't wake up having a panic attack. I hope that's a good sign. My dreams have been vivid (but hard to recall) again, but I'm sleeping through the night (I think?), but I feel like I'm sleep walking again. Can't win.
This has put the kibosh on being productive with side projects while at work, b/c I just can't focus. Its all I can do not to fall asleep on the circ desk :-/. Ima do my best to stick to a 9 hour sleep each night (after Monday, which is weird) and see if things improve. Tomorrow is also acupuncture, so if I'm at all awake we can have sleep/food/brain chatting. I think my anxiety is a little better, or at least not worse, for my trying to work on it. Tho I've been too zonked to keep reading the books I have to work with.
And yay, got my time off approved for my 4-day b'day weekend :-D Trying to figure out if I should reschedule my allergy shot and therapy sessions for the Friday and Monday respectively, b/c that means I can just sleeeeep those days and stay in the neighborhood. Or, leave them be, and its an easy way to tempt me out of the house on those days. Tho doing my regular grocery run on a weekday afternoon instead of the weekend might be a pleasant change too. So maybe I'll get my shots rescheduled for Thursday evening. B/c right now I'm definitely leaning towards maximum sleepage.
<3 Chrysilla