Queen of the Cat People

Am not having a good Tuesday the 13th. Nope, nope.

This is the third day I've forgotten my vitamins, and the weather is non-thunder stormy, so I've got a migraine coming in. And I'm the usual sleep-deprived for Tuesday. Its too cold in the office, but now that its sunny now I'm sure it will be too hot and sweaty outside when I leave. My right eye still twitches. Might be suffering from very early pms. I caught my hand in the door of one of t he bathroom stalls this morning. And forgot to do the split-lunch-in-half thing.

Tried to work on some writing stuff, just couldn't focus. CF really is like having a hangover that never ends. Blogger-braggarts today are going on about the ongoing 'hustle' required for a successful goal-getting life, and I would like to smack them all in the head with fatigue, brainfog, and a migraine and see how well they do with *that*.

So u can probably tell that I'm very cranky today. Meh. At least when it's Friday the 13th, its still *Friday* :-P


The weekend was pretty low-key. Very brainless, but less cranky about it. Saturday was vegging and some light craftwork, but mostly it was a fatigue-hangover. So no Browncoats b/c no energy, oh well. Sunday I got to all the regular chores, and more extensive craft stuff. I watched about 2 seasons worth of Burn Notice while doing various things, and treated myself to my favorite lamb shoulder chops b/c they were on sale at the normal grocery store on Friday.

Lost a lot of time on FB and YT, which is starting to worry me. I would have gotten to bed at 11pm as planned hoped, except Youtube. And suddenly I lost 90 mins and still needed a shower. May have to restrict home-internets again, at least from certain social websites. But then what else would I do when I forget what's written in my dayplanner?

( Sewing! )

( Tummy stuffs )

Looked up that Tai Chi studio I've been trying to get to for *years* at this point. (ugh) If their schedule stays the same, and I get the work schedule I want for the fall, I'll easily be able to take either of the classes I want. Could actually do both time-wise, but not so much $$ wise. If I can just remember its there this year. Would like to at least try exercise again to see if it hurts me.


Sho frustrating. There are things I *want* to do, and I have the time, and they are not at all frightening. I just have no brain-spoons for them. On a bad-to-average day I hardly remember I have any goals or projects, and this month I have no idea why that is. OK, I have a few ideas as stated last week (food, craft binging, sleep dep) but the bad days are that much more frustrating when you haven't had a good day in a while. I have to remind myself that it was the same way back in March (when I already had a crazy diet to follow), but that's only making it more depressing. I've been unable to do much at all this year, and I just can't figure out why.

I have a list of things to do tonite written up in my dayplanner. Fix my Paypal account, finish the current wave of bug-proofing the chantry, and put together my vitamin cases for the week (albeit 2 days late :-P). Btu writing things down only works if you remember to read the things later. And at present, there is a hole in my brain where all the info dribbles out.

I really miss being able to brain. Soon, back to the drawing board, if I can remember where it is.

<3 Chrysilla

Friday night I started taking 3mg of melatonin at bedtime, like I stopped doing around January 2011, and I feel pretty OK. No residual drowsiness (tho with me, that's hard to tell anyway).

Actually, I've had a really super busy weekend (by my current standards), despite wanting to crawl inside my own skull and expire for most of Friday. I had already put sewing out of my mind that day due to my negative bonus to dex for two days running, so I got hyped up for home improvement and chores, which turned into another bout of Discardia.

( A Weekend Full of Accomplishments )

Jebus. OK, that was mostly just cleaning, feel free to skip the cut tags. But I have precious little else to be excited about these days, so I enjoyed it while it was happening.

Did not get around to the dusting, but by the end of the weekend most of it was probably airborne. So its in my best interest to let it fall to the surfaces and then kill it with cloths and swiffers next weekend. And then wet-wash the floors once its warm enough to open the back door for chemical venting. I wore a cheap dust mask for most of the work, and don't have a S.I. today, so double yay.

And I still haven't cleaned up the top of the fridge, which used to be mouse central, b/c issues. But soon I think. Maybe I just did all of that other cleaning to avoid that one little spot of territory? Blah, issues.

When it gets warm outside, I may finally feel functional enough to wash the f#$% out of the balcony and start setting up that space again. Not to mention, painting the bathroom and hallway seem less intimidating. Even the kitchen reno, but less intimidating still leaves that kind of intimidating. Eeep.


However, this is all dependent on me feeling less CF-y. Which I do so far. Unfortunately I could also just be pms'ing, which sometimes results in extra energy and good mood swings. So if I still feel on the better side of my normal next week, or even better than that, I'll start considering getting a life again. I'm not sure a massive, early spring cleaning binge really counts.

Other things that need to happen sooner: Taxes, photographing the latest shinies. Less sooner, I'm finally mending/fixing old clothes so I don't have to buy new ones, yay! And maybe that pattern sewing project I recently got fabric for. DCon is only 6 months away, so I'm starting to suss out if I need any new patterns & fabric, or if by coincidence I already have everything I need.

A friend is having a b'day party on Friday that I'll try to attend, I'd like to try and hit Browncoats on Saturday afternoon, and NYRSF is Wednesday, so maybe I'll have the energy for some of that socializing.

<3 Chrysilla